Sunday, October 3, 2010

Private Journal: Saturn's Gift: "Inspired Melancholy"

This morning I've been reading that the medieval astrologer, Marsilio Fincino, was the first to express the “gift of Saturn”—namely that Saturn can be the midwife of insight. This is because depression, or “melancholia” as he called it, creates a permeable boundary between consciousness and unconsciousness, and allows us to adjust real issues that have gotten out of hand—our personal unfinished business. He says inner reflection, or depression, is experienced like a “falling into ourselves” that brings us to the point where we are no longer able to continue with life in the usual way....why? Because we’re not nourished any longer by what is—by what the ego has achieved and what the world has given us So we begin creating a bridge: first insight, then action, then change.

Sounds good, but at the moment I can feel the “melancholia” with Sophie, and I don’t have insight into what she’s thinking, so the feeling hangs in the air between us today like a gray mist. I wonder how we lost yesterday’s magical synchronicity at Whitby?

So as I sit here journaling (waiting for Sophie to get up this morning) I’m reading about how Saturn times can return us to states of contemplation, peace and equilibrium—or it can lead to what Carl Jung called “enantiodromia” –a complete and opposite change of attitude. This is when a condition is so polarized or severe that it polarizes into its opposite. I wonder if some of that is brewing.

During Saturn Returns and transits we are more permeable to feeling the defeats of the ego and we feel unseen and often lacking direction. Jung would say this space needs to be “held and allowed” until Saturn brings its gift of insight, creating a bridge for the Self to cross over into a truer destiny path. Jung talked about this in “holding the tension of the opposites” till the third way (the inspiration) is made clear. It arises from the depths of melancholia.

 I wonder how this is all playing out with transiting Saturn conjuncting my Sun now….I guess I’m living into it, rather than merely writing about it. When Sophie wakes up, we will decide if and when we are really going to get on that train and go visit her father…or not. We will see if there is still anything between Alistair and I...and I’d like to visit Carl Jung’s place as well…

Hmm….it seems as if astrologers either want to make light of Saturn transits, or tend to make them the opposite—fearful. I lean towards seeing the positive restructuring that Saturn wants to build, but I’m aware that it’s a mistake to turn the darkness of Kronos (Saturn) into too much of a good thing—for this would miss the fact that what appears to be the dark night of the Soul still is dark (!)--a “Nigredo” experience—even though it’s the awakening of imagination. Before movement, there is no movement, or stuckness.

I am waiting for Sophie to get up this morning. She’s a late sleeper. Yesterday she explored Whitby by herself for awhile, while I retreated to our rooms to rest and read…and even with my books and journal I feel this touch of melancholia—it’s true, Saturn is on my Sun, and I haven’t seen the bridge to the future yet. I wait for insight.

 “Saturn marks off the stages, the ages, separating time, history and the past. We lose energy as we move through this passage, as we are called to dance with an invisible partner. The antidote to Saturn is Jupiter, the planet of expansion, grace and opportunities, and Venus, the planet of love and connection and beauty.” I wait for Sophie….and then…? Will I wait for Alistair? Is he waiting for us? I wish one could take a dose of Venus and Jupiter as easy as one can take vitamin supplements….ah…I hear a stirring from the bedroom….


Zanne said...

Saturn is forming an opp to my natal venus soon - w/natal venus in aries I have struggled with my own natural ability toward detachment...w/saturn knocking I am already feeling myself pulling away. Your journal letters are a blessing! I seem to read what I need to hear.

Elizabeth Spring said...

Thank you's people like you who keep me going here! I would like to hear...if you feel like sharing...a bit how this Saturn is affecting you.....I think I'm doing pretty well with it, but am fighting off a cold, struggle with boundaries and love, and have bone aches....sigh, all Saturnian stuff!

Zanne said...

Saturn & I know each other well...Natal Saturn exactly squares my Natal Sun. I get to practice "self discipline" alot! I just do not always like it too much. This opp to venus is asking for "self discipline", again, along the lines of my love life and fiances. I went back & looked at the last time this Saturn transit occurred (1981). What I recall were feelings of being trapped & stifled in a marriage that started at a very young age. I had a young daughter & only worked PT then. What followed was an unplanned 2nd child. I struggled alot with all of this back then. The marriage did finally end 2.5 yrs later and actually not completely of my doing. So here we go again - ugh.
Hearing other's thoughts on Saturn helps me to stay open minded and less uncertain and fearful. I'm a bit older and wiser this time (I hope!) Feel better soon:-)

Elizabeth Spring said...

And Daniel....thanks for your personal comments to And yes, I am going to consider pulling this all into a book a some point...after editing! Thanks....